This picture was at @thestagemiami 2013.. I never performed with a sound guy like the one I had there. I could actually hear my vocals. Its was great! I had been growing out a dread at that time and still feeling out my identity as a performer and singer.
One thing I struggled a lot with at this time was image. Like I mentioned before I wasn't the ideal lead singer in our area. Everyone was looking for someone like the lead of Paramore. I spent hours ironing my hair and putting a concoction of products to makes sure our #miami humidity didnt effect it. It wasnt my band that made me feel that pressure but my old peers and other people that really made me feel like my hair and my skin wasn't good enough.
I had this one occurence where I was with my girlfriends and we had gone to the beach so I washed my hair. My friend encouraged me to leave my hair natural and let it curl up and she helped me with her knowledge since she has the prettiest ringlet curls.. and my hair turned into a yummy curly fro. When I went to meet with my other peers and the person I liked at the time they asked me what the hell happened to me.. that I looked like a total mess as if I had just been electrocuted. At the time I was not strong and felt so hurt. I began religiously ironing my hair and making sure it never proofed up again.
That was definently a type of racism I experienced a lot of the time and just recently I became empowered enough to break that barrier that was placed by so many racist people with help with my friends and boyfriend and a lot of myself.
When I see a flat iron I literally scowl lol. 🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿🌿
#punk#punkrock #rock#music#goth#emo#alternative#metal#curlyhairlife#racism#curls#mystix#miami#lawofattraction#hardcore#afrolatino#alternativegirl #miamirap #miamiflorida #vintage#naturalhairstyles#band#poppunk#black#miamirappers #againstracism#queer#poc#afropunk
Posted at: 2019-06-16 22:45:14
running on 3 hours of sleep per night and lots of caffeine... gotta love exam season 🥴
Posted at: 2019-06-16 22:45:06
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If you’re struggling with loving yourself unconditionally or low self esteem practicing self care and labeling those actions as act of self love will help you feeling more confident and raise your self esteem!
These are examples but one size doesn’t fit all!
To make it simple anything that you do to nourish your soul, uplift your spirit, bring joy to your heart or make your body more healthy is an act of self love. ✨Let your light shine✨
!!!!NO REPOST OF CAPTION PLEASE!!!
Behind on posting and marketing because honestly the past few weeks have had their fair share of ups and downs. Just trying to go with the ebb and flow of life and take everything as it comes and goes. Just because there are hard times you should always be thankful. The bad times are there so we can recognize the good. Keep your chin up if any of you relate and do something that makes you smile today. This was from two weeks ago on a day that I’m not sure was good or not but dang was I feelin myself.
Imagine you’re playing a videogame. You run around and suddenly hit a wall. Even though the wall is not a physical object inside the computer, rather than a computer generated graphical element, you still can’t penetrate walls or any other solid objects in the game. They are coded in a way that prevent you to do so. You play the game within the given ruleset. You could only defy these rules if you have cheat codes or you’re a great hacker.
The moving image you see, when you navigate your character is actually not moving at all. It consists of sequential still frames that create the illusion of a moving image, when they are rapidly switched after one another. How the image is rendered out depends on your intention and control of the game character. Only the area that is within the observation field of your character, is rendered out for you. Everything else is just information, that gets rendered only when you enter a specific area. The game graphics doesn’t exist independently without the observation of you, who is playing the game.
Quantum mechanics states, that our universe works in a similar way. But it’s way more advanced and complex than the games we have played in our computer or smartphones. This game is projected in our mind, so it’s more like a dream. What we think is objectively real, is nothing more than an emergent construct of underlying mathematical informational processes. Solidity is an illusion. It’s a massive energy field, that vibrates in vast range of frequencies. Life is a quantum singularity with infinite possibilities in a superposition, where all possibilities exist simultaneously. Where we focus our intent, we collapse the quantum state into our perceptions of reality. It’s all happening in the present moment. Now is all there is. World doesn’t exist independently outside of our sensory observation field.
Our reality is rendered out depending on our inner beliefs. We are not able to perceive something, that we don’t believe or understand. This is the secret hack for the game of life, that has been known for thousands of years, but forgotten over time. We think we live in a world, but actually the world lives inside us.
HAPPY FATHER’S DAY, DADDY 💕🙏🏾 || Happy Father’s Day to all of the moms and dads and uncles, aunts, grandparents, teachers and play cousins who make up your village!! 💕 And I love you, Daddy to my Papa who is one of the most awesome people I know.
This morning I made the most of the time I had while waiting for my bus to work. And I am so glad I brought my Sacred Traveler Oracle cards with me today. These are one of my newer decks. I pulled 3 cards because 3 is my life number. The first card: "Embracing Enthusiasm": I have been coming out of a dark night of the soul/soul awakening and until recently I felt numb about everything. This card reminds me to not just get excited for what's to come or what's possible but revel in the abundance and beauty I have right now. This leads right into the next card: "Voyage of the Heart": I had closed my heart for so long or kept people at arm's length. I told myself: I will be happy when or I will love myself when or I will be whole because... But my happiness came from within, just being, and letting go not because of external circumstances. The last card: "Valiant Courage": I kept waiting for signs or stuff to just fall into my lap yet I was too afraid to ask or take the risks on my own. But lately, I have been taking chances, swallowing some pride. It has been fun and some pretty exciting things are in the works!
Now is a great time to manifest the reality you want! This is funny because in my post the other day this was a similar read. So the universe is letting you guys know (the ones who resonate) that it’s time to start manifesting the things you desire. Also you need to put the actual work in creating the reality you want. The Magician energy can do what they put there mind to because The Magician is a powerful energy. Notice the infinite sign above their head on the card, that represents the endless opportunity that can come of manifestation and hard work 💖
Posted at: 2019-06-16 22:37:43
Posted at: 2019-06-16 22:37:39
Control was extremely hard for me to surrender to. ✨
I always wanted to feel like I had my grip on things and that I could make sure everything went with how I wanted it. 💕
I disliked the feeling of the unknown because it made me feel so unsure and scared of what’s next. ❤️I made love to certainty because it felt so damn good to lay with her in all the safeness she brings me. ❤️
I didn’t realize why control was so big for me. 🌙When I looked into my childhood, my teen years, i noticed a pattern. ❤️I didn’t have control, that safety, that certainty. ✨
As I kept moving through life, I clinged onto control so much because I allowed it to be my everything. ❤️It was the one thing at the time I felt like I knew my fate. ✨
But by being in control all of the time. 💕It didn’t allow me to explore or ask for help because I was always inferior no one else do the shit I do in my fucking way. 🌙
I didn’t want anyone to take it from me. ✨
But what’s behind control? ✨
Fear of the unknown. ✨
Fear of losing it all. ✨
Fear of not knowing. ✨
Doubt that I could have others help or explore more. ✨
But when you dive even deeper, control is resistance to ourselves. It creates the same outcome of more forms of resistance. 🙌🏻 But what’s behind the surrendering?🙌🏻 If control wasn’t there, how would surrendering feel? ✨
It felt scary at first. ✨
But it felt fucking liberating. ✨
To not always know everything and allow space for the universe to surprise me. ✨
This plan of life here..has been pre-destined. ❤️ So if you surrender the control, you can breathe. 🌙You can allow all of the magic this big AF universe can serve you with come through to you ❤️ You are safe and have always been safe in creation, in love and in life ❤️
How’d I get so lucky- with a man that not only serves and protects his country but also one who does almost the impossible for his family. Not only are you exemplary as a parent but as a guide our daughters can look for, the qualities you possess as a man- and anyone that truly knows him can attest to this. I can’t imagine a better partner to help me raise these little monsters. I love you so much... Happy Father’s Day, Papi. And a very HFD to all the awesome dads out there. Ps this was a homecoming video from 2017 ❤️
Congrats to my beautiful friend @loveshadi 💛⠀
So honored to have been able to be a part of this day and to spend a weekend with such badass women.⠀
The company you keep says a lot about you. Choose to be around those who lift you up. Who encourage, motivate and inspire you.⠀
Special shoutout to my girls @baker2g & @jennifersteen1 . This weekend was amazing and I’m so grateful to have bonded with you beautiful babes.⠀
Who in your life inspires you? Write them today and tell them.. it means everything. If I have learned anything this past week it is to speak your truth and be honest and authentic in everything you do.⠀
When we judge situations as good or bad, or get attached to particulars, we can get in the way of our own happiness. When we accept all forms of experience and growth (in our lives and the lives of others), we let go of expectation and naturally experience fulfilling joy. We are meant to be happy, we just have to let ourselves get there 💛 (Picture from @phoenix__rising__ )
In AWE of how much 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚢 I’ve collected in my life recently...☀️ It started with writing a gratitude list, every day for the past week or so.
Now don’t you roll your eyes at me... we’ve all read about the benefits of a gratitude list from every book or documentary or wellness celeb ever— but have you ever actually DONE IT?! *crickets*
I used to 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 about gratitude often... the big things like family, friends, a place to live, my cat, etc.
But putting pen to paper and noting the things they that are bringing me happiness 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 has become EVERYTHING.
Nowadays, my list reads more like:
☆ a soft, snoring baby Lion in my lap
☆ the crickets I can hear through the screen door
☆ a clean kitchen that makes me feel totally abundant af
☆ dishwashers. Holy shit dishwashers.
☆ being sore as hell but feeling STRONGER every damn day... aka the opportunity and ability to move my body in healthy ways
☆ running into (X person) downtown and realizing how good of a mood that simple interaction put me in!!
☆ the little baby lambs I ride my bike to each weekend
☆ crickets... again!
Nothing in this list is life-changing or extraordinary, but they do make life feel extraordinary.
Noticing these little things I’m grateful for along with the big things I’m always grateful for has increased my ability in each moment to find the things that bring me peace & contentment.
As a result I am more constantly in a state where I feel I am absolutely bubbling over with gratitude & silliness. I have bad days, bad moods, but then I hear those damn crickets and I remember that it’s the little things that really do add up and make for beautiful moment in this crazy life.
I’ve been on a roll with my gratitude list for DAYS now, and I don’t think I’ll be stopping anytime soon. ✨
I really like this because it is so true. I feel that we often allow our past to consume us. We make other people "pay" for what others did to us. Then we wonder why nothing ever works out the way we want it to. But, how can something work out if we don't allow it to? We create our own reality. (I think I've said this at least 90 times now lol) I am definitely guilty of all of this. BUT, I have acknowledged it and I am trying my best to move forward. Now, I don't mean that we should just trust everyone no matter what we have been through, feel what you need to feel, but try and understand that not everyone is out to get you. We can't move forward if we don't allow ourselves to. You are worthy. You are amazing. You deserve so much, but you have to allow yourself to receive it.
I know it's difficult to see sometimes, especially when you feel like you have been "shit on" by a lot of people in your life, but things do get better. The more positive you can be, the more positivity you bring into your life! I have been through a lot in my life, so trust me, this was even hard for me to believe, but I found it to be true in practice. I forced myself to start looking at things more positively, especially after someone broke my heart a little over a year ago. For some reason, this time, I remained positive. I tried to look at everything from an outside perspective I tried to stop playing the victim. I didn't allow myself to get in the way. Sure, I had my negative times throughout, but it was crazy, I started to attract more and more positive people/things into my life. Things seemed to start moving forward in a faster rate than in the past when I held myself back. Sure, this is something I work on every day and sometimes I am not successful, but as long as we continue to push forward, that's all that matters. Be happy with progress, no matter how small! It's still a step in the right direction. I'll say it again. You are worthy. You are amazing. You deserve happiness. You deserve to heal.
Kids like to eat their dessert first and ride the water ride before all others. Though it’s not a logical plan, sometimes our logical left brain doesn’t have all the answers...
Sometimes we need to let our creative, imaginative, emotional right brain lead. Sometimes we need to follow our pleasure and experience the magic unfolding. .
As mama bear, I said no to sugar before protein because I’ve witnessed that blood sugar disaster too many times. But I leaned in to the water ride as the first. .
If you zoom in, you can see the delight on their faces. That delight set the tone for the whole day and they didn’t even notice their wet jeans. .
Where can you let go a little and follow your emotion, your pleasure? .
Posted at: 2019-06-16 19:19:37
@m0llys hon gör det igen 😭❤️ 🎼Jag gör det bara värre
Om jag kommer närmre
Jag vill ju inget hellre
Men vi mår bara sämre sen
Jag gör det bara värre
Och kanske det är bättre
För om jag får dig att hata mig
Kan jag inte få tillbaka dig sen
Du sa att du förstod
Fast kanske för att trösta mig
Och fast det tar emot
Så kan jag inte vara den för dig
Jag måste byta ton
För inget kommer ordna sig
Om jag slutar tro (en dag)
Att vi är stora nog
För varje gång vi fick det att funka
Så blev vi lite mindre ändå💔 #mollysanden#hatamig#life#love#tufft#kärlek #art#sweden#fitnes#summer#lawofattraction
Posted at: 2019-06-08 15:14:05
What do you see when you think of the best version of yourself? What does that person look like to you?
Please share and then start showing up as that person.
If you want to be held accountable for becoming that person, DM me and let's begin journey to the highest version of yourself.
When I decided I was ready to become the highest version of myself this is what I started off by doing
-I eliminated the individuals in my life who brought me down
-I shifted my focus on to me and doing things that I enjoy
-I recognized what I wanted out of life and began doing those things
-I started telling people my dreams and began making those my dreams my reality
You are capable of becoming your best self. Simply begin envisioning what your best self would be and then start the work on becoming that person.
That's all for now♥️👑